I need to stop avoiding the mirror. It stares me down though. It caresses my eyes with the anguish of what I haven’t accomplished. Failure.

What else is going to manifest within my chest and fester

Fight it off… Drowning in pools of self defeating obscenities, I turn to the east and hope that this will pass.

• Joanna Newsom
• Arcade Fire
• Korn
• Mastodon
• ISIS
• Crowbar
• Choke(Extra Stout)
• The Doors
• Norma Jean
• Aesop Rock
• Acid Bath
• The Blood Brothers
• Born Of Osiris
• Broken By The Burden
• Radiohead
• Deftones
• Electric Wizard
• Job For A Cowboy

I can’t stand on my feet, Lord. Shrieking in his ears, i find myself somewhere that doesn’t exist in my child’s eye…a place of hate and loathing. I am standing over myself in a small room. It cries with dust and dandruff of my ex-girlfriends, filling my hands with guilty pus. I am losing my mind

I am losing my mind

Am I losing my mind

What a blah….blah day

Been a while….hasn’t it

sometimes waiting isn’t worth the pain. You just have to go out and get what you want in your life instead of sitting on your bum